Forgetting is the hard part

The hardest thing to do in life is forgetting, because it means saying goodbye to everything that was once true and everything that you thought would never leave you. If you were to say goodbye, you might lose all the memories that you wish to keep but if you don't, the bad memories will remain and harden your heart and soul making you jaded.

A large, Alaskan Tundra male wolf's head shot up, his eyes were widened his sides were heaving. Every time.... I get close to her.. she disappears. sighing, the male rested his head on his paws, staring out of his make shift den.

Yawning, he stood up and exited the den stretching out each limb in turn before scanning the ground before him with soft, gentle eyes.. The land he was on now wasn't the land he was use to, it was different from before, this land was coated in a blanket of white snow that yearned to capture and freeze each of those who treaded on it. It didn't just sink down to the skin, this kind of snow seemed to freeze every part of you, right down to the heart.

The male brute sat his haunches down onto the ground and stared off into the distance, his eyes clouding over as he began to think, laughter filled his head as did the voice of his lost loved ones, they were excited and chattering amongst themselves, his old pack, his mate, his pups... all gone and now he was here in a foreign land that he didn't understand with wolves he had not yet met.

The European she wolf gazed up at the white foggy sky, small snowflakes falling down onto the cold white ground. Kasdeya made her way into a cold and luminous forest. Where large trees and several poisonous plants could be found as well as healing plants. It was a territory Kasdeya had never explored or laid a paw in, but today was the day where she was going to explore this territory.

Taking a deep breath Kasdeya continued her way, each paw going deep into the snow as she walked on. Though the European she wolf was still preoccupied at the thought of leaving her family behind like this. A perfect family that was now nothign more than ruins...Where the tension became high and where no one showed any respect to each other. Leaving was her only escape.

Kasdeya`s bi colored eyes were laid upon a wolf who was not too far from her now. An european male who seemed depressed...or desperate. Of course Kasdeya didn`t care much about his feelings as she didn`t even have some anymore...all that was left of her was her dead soul. Kasdeya took a deep breath sighing. She remained still, her eyes still locked upon the male...what was she going to do next...just walk away or talk to him? She didn`t know.

The male tilted his head to the sky, a smile crossing it as the snow dotted his fur with white flecks. Oh this sky, it weeps for those that have been lost, the air is so chilled and emotionless it turns the tears to ice.


Grrrrrawl The male's stomach suddenly made a awful noise, telling him that it wanted to be fed and now otherwise it would continue that horrid noise. The male tilted his head at his stomach and sighed, getting to his paws he turned his eyes catching sight of the fae that stood not to far from him. Who is that? he thought to himself as he twitched his nose and bounded over, pausing a few inches away from her to keep a distance.

"Hello.." he called.

Before Kasdeya could even take the time to think, the male had approached her standing only a few inches away. Kasdeya wasn`t quite sure what to expect at the moment. Did the male want to fight...or start a conversation...or just simply tell her to leave these lands.

"Hello.." he called.

Kasdeya opened her maw to say something, but closed it immediately. She wasn`t familliar with talking to any other wolves. During most of her lifetime the female had barely had a conversation with anyone. The european she wolf always thought being alone was much better, and it is. This wolf was making her uncomfortable...and Kasdeya wasn`t sure whether to blurt out.. or even rip his throat open. She despised company it was that simple! Why did he had to approach her than...just why...?

Kasdeya took a deep breath once again before looking at the ground embarrassed.

"Hi." She said harshly.

The male smiled at her answer and he dipped his head. " I do apologize for bothering you, but I haven't seen you before -well, I haven't seen any wolf from the pack that roam...." he drifted off into thought before shaking his head and continuing with what he said. "That roam here."


His ears perked up. "Do you mind me asking for your name?"

Polite. This wolf was polite. That was actually surprising. Why would a stranger be polite to some female who spoke harshly? That`s awkward... Kasdeya thought.

The european female bit her bottom lip hard, staring at the male`s smile. It was a gorgeous smile. It had been a long time since Kasdeya had last seen someone smile. It felt somehow great...

" I do apologize for bothering you, but I haven't seen you before -well, I haven't seen any wolf from the pack that roam...."

Kasdeya rolled her eyes. "You are bothering me..." She muttered under her breath.

"Well if you`re expecting to get help, I`m warning you, don`t ask me. I am not once who could possibly be useful at the moment as I am new to the territory as well. Go bother some --" Kasdeya said coldy.

"Some other wolf...I`m sure they`ll be more helpful than me anyways.." Kasdeya said calmly this time.

Kasdeya didn`t mean to be rude or mean to this wolf...she just didn`t think speaking to someone was a good idea...she could end up screwing everything up like she had before..it couldn`t happen again.

"Do you mind me asking for your name?"

Kasdeya glanced at the male into the eyes.

"Why?" She asked.

His tail swayed back and forth as he listened to her, the smile remained on his maw as he took in the words.

"As I figured," as he spoke he shuffled a paw to the side, pushing snow into a small pile. "And help? I do not need any help as of right now.."

He puffed out his cheeks, sending a rush of air bellowing into the sky turning it to a white puff. "As for your name, I figured I should ask.. " He dipped his head and stepped back some before turning his head to deeper into the forest. "Well, my name is Vance.'

The european`s bi colored eyes fixed to the ground as the male spoke. It wasn`t long after did she look at him, raising an eyebrow. Never had Kasdeya met someone as strange as this wolf. Not being able to tell what the male was doing, Kasdeya rolled her eyes. Silence feeling the air. She hadn`t resplied to the male yet as she still was unsure what to say.

Surprisingly the european male cut off the silence by introducing himself as Vance. Vance...Kasdeya thought. It was a name she would never have thought to hear. It did sound amazing though.

"Kasdeya." She spoke coldy.

Kasdeya, what a beautiful name

He thought to himself as he sat down, his eyes shinning. "It's a pleasure to meet you Kasdeya." as he spoke he dipped his head and twitched an ear.

She is very weary of me.. he continue to watch you, but drifted off into his thoughts Just like Zahra.... she was stand offish and didn't care much for talk..

The male`s eyes seemed to now be shinning for some unknown reasons. As he spoke, Kasdeya`s bi colored eyes were locked into his, no facial expression shown on her face.
This male was being a little too polite to some rude wolf like herself.

"I suppose I have to say the same." Kasdeya muttered under her breath. "Well...uhm it`s a pleasure to meet you too I suppose." Kasdeya said rather very quickly, blushing a little. She had never dared saying this to someone before it was a frist, but hopefully the last time as well.

"Are you searching for a pack by any chance? I know one roams these lands and seeing you here I wonder if you are here for the same thing I am.."

His head tilted to the side, before he stood up and stretched out his limbs, each in turn.

The european she wolf opened her maw, but closed it immediately thinking. A pack? Would this bea good idea for her to join a pack..who knew. Kasdeya a cruel wolf who`s been considered as the demon...would she possibly manage fitting in a pack? Most likely not. She was one who`s patiences wasn`t that high nor does she tolerate too much drama.

"Well.." Kasdeya began speaking, sighing.

"I doubt this would be such a great idea for me to join a pack as you can see. I highly doubt I`ll fit in with the other wolves." Kasdeya said harshly.

"then we can not fit in together" he woofed lightly, his tail swaying side to side as he laughed lightly. Play bowing he looked up at you. "what do you say?

sitting back up, he turned and faced the way that led deeper into the forest, the smells of the wolf pack getting increasingly stronger, washing over anything that crossed the path. But here, where they stood, it wasn't as strong a place, maybe where they rarely treaded

Kasdeya raised an eyebrow at the male. Was he actually being serious? Kasdeya knew that the male would fit in perfectly well with the rest, it was easy to tell. All the females would get attached to him rather easily. If she did decide to join the male would end up making new friends, forgetting her existence...which will allow Kasdeya to continue her journey.

"I guess..." Kasdeya muttered out.

In all honesty she was still doubting she would manage staying in a pack, but she could at least give it a try for a bit. Looking at the male, Kasdeya noticed that he was similar acting to her dead sister. Her eyes drifted away from him.

His smile faded and he nodded. "Shall we journey on to their camp? maybe we will meet some of the pack wolves along the way.. If you don't like it you can leave, I'm not sure Im going to stay, im just weighing my options at the moment." he spoke dimly

He shifted his weight from paw to paw and rolled his shoulders before smiling again.

Kasdeya simply nodded as well unsure of what to say. "If you say." The european she wolf replied feeling suddenly moody again.

She padded, following the brute unsure of where they were heading, but this wolf most likely knew where the camp was...hopefuly at least.

POSTIGN IN THE CAMP AS WELL*